The Other Side Of Nothing At All

[Written exactly in a minute and a half]

Nature - lonely, violent, stupid:

Can't seem to get in to

Where I am this absurd night;

And weird noises it does make

Pattering little tippity-taps on the

Windowpane of love; Oh, how I miss

You of all people should have

Been here to see the night through.

Tomorrow I'll be gone, and

So will the sun shine on

Me and you - as drifted apart

We stand on the threshold to the

Afterlife; We hold no clue

As to what stops us from

Jumping straight through to the

Other side of nothing at all.

Yours sincerely

Jude

The ballad of you and I

When I met you 'neath skies of blue
And nature all aglow,
The bluebirds sang, the church bells rang
And time did cease to flow.

Then spring came by to you and I -
Your perfume filled the air;
Some silent song kept ringing on
Like the answer to a prayer.

Now you were gone one summer morn' -
The skies had paused to weep;
My soul did sigh a lullaby
And put my heart to sleep.

I walked alone, still holding on
To dreams that were denied.
Some pretty dame without a name
Did nurse my broken pride.

But you came back - all out of luck;
I'd had my sweet revenge.
We'd lost our youth, forgot the truth
That we could never change.

So I spun about and walked right out -
You never turned your gaze.
In our heart of hearts, we knew our parts
But the play had left the stage.

Now we are old - Let it be told
I can't deny the pain.
But if you're there, Lord I swear
I'd live it all again.

Yours sincerely
Jude

In the night

The lights are low, the curtains down -

The day is set to close.

Quiet, as the scurrying mouse

Comes a moonbeam on tiptoes.

The wind is high, the night so clear -

The plants are all aglow.

With minds at ease and hearts at rest

Their heads swing to and fro.

There I sit and hum some tune;

My eyes are opened wide.

And dream a dream of carefree youth,

And the joy that is denied.

Yours sincerely

Jude

Fallen hast thou

Fallen hast thou, my faithful friend -

Thy bountiful heart laden with grief;

Seeketh thou what thy mind knoweth not -

Mine eyes, oh, a river they weep!

Answered? Nay, thy mendicant prayers

Knoweth no reason nor rhyme.

Thy gold, thy silver, all thy pride

Lay a-beggin' in the grime.

No more thou kisseth the summer moon

Nor the silvery waters below!

Behold, the lonely bluebirds shed

Blue teardrops in the snow.

Whither art thou, my angel bright?

The silent hills implore;

The tide is gone, the breeze is low -

This ship canst sail no more.

Fallen hast thou my faithful friend -

Thy tales them children hear

And for all the joy it bringeth them

T'is more than I canst bear.

Yours sincerely

Jude

The Day of The Black Balloon

[On the 29th of October a fest had been organized where I was undergoing my on job training. In that I won the first prize in short story writing. The motive was to write a story based on the following three keywords - road, balloon, and newspaper. The allotted time was half an hour. But all that I got was 20 minutes because chronically with me, a pen is never to be found when you most need one. But anyway, all's well that ends well and all that. This is what I had come up with in that short span of time. I have tried to reproduce it verbatim as far as possible, but some inadvertent discrepancies must have crept in. Oh, and you had to write the whole thing on only the two sides of an A4 sized paper. I'd never written a short story that short before. ]

Larry would always remember it as the day of the black balloon. Not that the balloon itself was black or anything, in fact it was of the brightest shade of red he’d ever seen. Rather, it signified the color of the cloud that now loomed over Larry’s life ever since that fateful evening with Samantha.

Larry and Samantha had been spending their evenings strolling down the village roads ever since the two names had been placed together in a single sentence. On that particular evening, Samantha was telling Larry all about the party her aunt had thrown in their garden the day before (to which of course, Larry had not been invited). She’d got to the part where Mrs. Miller had accidentally spilt some black pudding over Mrs. Peabody’s bodice when she all of a sudden stopped in the middle of the road as if struck by lightning. Larry followed her gaze but all he could see was a small child holding on to a string from which was suspended a red balloon.

“What happened?” Larry asked. She did not answer. He asked again, louder than before – “What’s wrong with you?”

“Oh, nothing,” was all she said as she turned her gaze downwards. “You wouldn’t understand.”

“But something’s the matter, Sammy. Tell me.” He’d grabbed her by the upper part of her naked arm as he said this and could feel the heat rising.

“Why on earth are you so insensitive? You see that child there; see that’s beauty, poetry, sublime. But you, you’d never see any of it. All you men are interested in only that one thing. You’re such a pig.”

Later, he confessed that it was the pig bit that had hurt the most. “But I’m sensitive, too,” he protested. “Tell me, didn’t I risk my neck trying to save your kitten when it climbed up that tree?”

For a moment it looked as if she did understand. Her gaze turned moist and she looked at him intently. But the very next second, he made his second mistake for that evening. “Just because I don’t go all potty over every human-ling in diapers does not make me insensitive!”

That did it. She turned on her heels saying, “I have to go. My aunt needs to take her medicine,” and stomped her way back to her aunt’s place. He did go to her place once or twice after that but a week later he was told that she was off to the city to look for work.

It happened a year later while he was sitting at the local tavern. He’d already had a few more beers than what would have been enough to lay him out cold but he’d held his ground. All of a sudden his gaze fell on a small article in the newspaper. The headline went – “Penguins perishing in Antarctica. Scientists fear they may be extinct in the next twenty years.” As soon as he read it, he collapsed on the floor blubbering like a baby. The kindly old gentleman on the stool beside him tried to help him up. Soon a small crowd had gathered. “I’m sensitive, too, you know,” he kept saying to each of them, “See, I cried for the penguins. Come on Sammy, I dare you to be quite as sensitive as that!”

Yours sincerely

Jude

The Alley Cat (A story)

He wasn’t like the rest of them – different somehow. He was one of the ‘slower’ kids. Therefore, at age forty-two, his knowledge of arithmetic was limited to adding up the little coins he got for pocket money from his seventy year old mother who lived off the meager pension that she received courtesy her late army-man husband who ran out of luck all of a sudden up on the front one fine summer day, some forty years ago. Geography, he knew no further than what street he lived on; and he probably had no idea even what chemistry was – in every sense of the word! So, as you might expect, the poor kid had few other kids for company. All the other kids grew up, you see, and he just couldn’t keep up with them. So, while they became doctors, lawyers or bankers and honeymooned with their wives in Tahiti, he still wore those ridiculous shorts and tweed jacket, and sturdy school shoes (over socks). Well, it wasn’t always that way – thirty-five years ago, his mother baked the finest cookies in the entire neighbourhood. So, every evening kids flocked in at their place for free goodies. Of course, they never played with him or anything, I mean, you couldn’t really play soccer with someone who couldn’t count the number of players on his own team! So, at school, they amused themselves by putting slugs down his back and watching him squirm or kicking him in the shins. He always thought of complaining to his mother about it, but he never could remember it all the way home. Then, one day, the headmistress saw it and immediately called his mother up for an interview. So, she came with her hair in a bun and heard her out. They advised her to put him in a special school “for his own good” where he’d get “that li’l extra care that he needs”. She sat through it all with a stony eye and a pursed lip, her hands folded neatly on her lap and her back straight as a ramrod. He, meanwhile, was quite happy making tiny ripples with his finger in the fishbowl on the headmistress’s desk. When the interview was finally over, she said nary a word but merely shook the headmistress’s clammy hand gravely and then taking the kid gently by the scuff, stormed out the door in short, quick steps and never once turned back till they were inside their home and with the door safely locked.

The following month, she did enroll him in a special school, though. This special school turned out to be a lot smaller than his previous school, but the kids weren’t quite as mean, and he didn’t have too bad a time. But after three years, on finding that her son hadn’t learnt a whit more than the delicate art of making paper planes and how to whistle, she decided to keep him off school for good, what with the high inflation rate and all. It was then that she also got a job washing dishes and running odd jobs at the local fast food joint. Of the money she made therein, she spent not a penny even though her clothes were dangerously thin from wear and they hadn’t had a decent pot of coffee in that house for over half a decade. She stashed it all away neatly in a jar within a cupboard in the kitchen so that when she was no longer there, the kid needn’t have to starve or suffer the indignity of an ‘institution’. Between 8 a.m. and 7:30 pm, you could always find her there in her customary white apron with ketchup stains all over wiping grease off the tables or cleaning up the mess made by some clumsy waitress trying to carry six plates of chop suey all at once.

Every morning, he’d get up at six-thirty, brush his teeth, and take a hot bath (even in the month of June). She would meanwhile finish up her chores around the house which included tidying up the beds and doing the odd laundry. Then, he’d get dressed in his shirt and shorts and have his hair combed out and oiled by his mother, following which, she’d help him tie his shoelaces (a tricky affair that, not one he had mastered yet) and the pair of them would slip hand in hand out onto the open streets. On reaching the fast food joint, the mother would enter through the front door first leaving the kid to wait at the back. She’d then head straight to the kitchen, where by a tacit agreement with the cook with whom they were both on friendly terms, she’d smuggle out to him some breakfast consisting of buttered toast, eggs and a glass of chocolate milk to wash it all down. He’d have his breakfast out there on the steps very slowly and with great relish, taking care not to spill any of the milk onto his shirt. Then, about an hour later his mother would come out to collect the plates. This routine would seldom vary. Then his mother would tell him to go and play all by himself and bury herself back in the bowels of the eatery.

His playpen comprised entirely off a dark, stinking alley behind the joint littered with innumerable trash cans and the refuse from the kitchen. Here, he spent the happiest part of his day. This alley – it was like a tiny ecosystem in itself. There were all kinds of creatures here, and each one a friend. For the kid, he wouldn’t hurt a fly; and quite literally, too for the place was abuzz with flies and yet he never would swat a single one even though they constantly kept buzzing in and out his ears. Once when he was twenty, he had seen a fat, ugly man rush out the kitchen backdoor at breakneck speed with a stick in his hand. Preceding him was a small mouse that scurried along the alley floor as fast as its little legs would carry it. The mouse was doing pretty well, actually – twice the man had swung and twice the mouse had stepped away at the very last second so that the stick landed inches away from its puny body on the hard flagstones below. It was, I think, the momentary hesitation that did it. Till then, the lane had been a straight one, and all the mouse had had to do was run along a single direction looking neither right nor left. But all of a sudden, the lane bifurcated into two, each at 180 degrees to the other. So, for a fraction of a second the mouse stopped, deciding which way to go. It was the very opportunity the man was looking for. Steadying himself, he raised his stick high in the air and taking aim, swung. This time, he did not miss. A screech very much like hard fingernails against a blackboard was drowned by the sound of stick hitting against hard ground. He struck three more times for good measure, but he needn’t have, for its insignificant rodent soul was already far beyond the realms of the neighbourhood. He then turned on his heels and disappeared back whither he came from, whistling ‘What a wonderful World’ through his teeth. All this time, the kid just sat there on the street mute with fear, but as soon as the man had left, he rushed to the spot where the dead mouse lay. Slowly, quietly, he knelt down and picking up the body, blood and all, stuffed it in his pants’ pocket.

Later that night, when they had reached home and locked the door, his mother complained of the horrible stench that was following them round. He did not reply. She made him take off his jacket and searched it thoroughly. Then, finding nothing she ran her hand along the sides of his shorts, whereupon she felt a bump. Diving into his pocket, she felt something soft and fuzzy, and when she fished out the thing and looked at it, she nearly fainted from the shock. Angry beyond words, she raised her arm as if to strike him. But the kid, already a head taller than her, neither flinched nor ran, but merely looked straight into her eyes and said - “maybe, it is a mother too.” Since then, she had never once raised her voice against him, and only to be fair to the kid, he had not provided her with much of an opportunity either.

So, the days had gone by, and with each new day he had made new friends in that alley or lost someone dear. Human friends, he had none, for few people ventured into that part of the town because of the smell and the dirt, except perhaps to dump more trash. But still, some people did come – dark, shifty looking men speaking in whispers who always seemed to smoke cigars and who had endless stuff to pass into each others’ pockets. Once, he had seen a short, bald man and a tall guy in a hat walk in together. The two of them seemed to be exchanging some rather heated words when all of a sudden this tall guy fished out a gun from his pocket and promptly shot the other in the chest. He then threw the gun down and disappeared over the wall, all smooth as silk. A few minutes later his mother had come running out to him looking very white and finding a shawl in her handbag, had wrapped it around his shoulders even though the weather was quite warm. Then there had been the sirens and the men in uniform going round with a notebook asking everybody questions. All that was very exciting, but he was happy most of all that his mother had got off work early.

Then, around a year ago, some new kids moved into the neighborhood. These were real mean kids between the ages ten and thirteen who had their hair in spikes and jeans hacked apart with a penknife so that they reached only halfway down their shins. They liked to burn away their daddies’ filthy money on clothes, skateboards and food till their obese bellies were quite ready to burst. They always went around town all together, skateboards and bats in hand, screaming or throwing stones at the dogs or the occasional old lady they met. This particular fast food joint was a special favourite with them. They used to come here almost everyday and kicked up such a ruckus shouting at the waitresses and throwing food all over the place that his mother’s weary joints ached from crouching for long periods over the floor in order to clean up all that mess after they were gone.

Then, one day, one of them had dared another to go behind the eatery, since he had heard from some other kid that a ghost lived there. The other had taken him up on his challenge and had lead the way around the building on tiptoes, while everyone else followed in a close body a foot behind him. It was there they first saw him, with an empty Coca Cola bottle in one hand and a small metal pipe in the other, striking the two together and making weird music. They were very much alarmed at the sight but as they started to run, he saw them too, and letting go of the bottle, he started to get up. Scared all the more, the kid up front picked up a banana peel from a nearby trash can and flung it at him. Immediately, he flopped back on the ground and curled up in a fetal position with his head between his knees and his back towards them. This broke the ice like no other and each boy in his turn picked up something from his surroundings and hurled it at him with all his might, laughing like crazy all the while. Some of these things were quite hard and he screamed when they hit him, but this only made them laugh harder. Hearing all that noise, his mother rushed out the kitchen and arming herself with a saucepan which she brandished malevolently, somehow managed to drive the kids away.

This recurred on numerous occasions as the days went by. Each time his mother had to rush out to him, and each time she somehow did manage to drive them away despite her seventy years. But these kids had found their best toy yet and they were in no mood to back down. So, they simply looked for an opportunity when his mother wouldn’t be there. And this opportunity came one autumn eve, when the manager sent her out to inquire down at the local departmental store why their supply of flour hadn’t arrived as scheduled. They watched her go out the front door and as soon as the coast was clear, slipped out the back. He was trying to make friends with a kitten by tempting it with a piece of meat he’d found among the pile of refuse. He had succeeded in drawing the kitten at an arm’s reach. As soon as he saw them, the piece of meat dropped from his fingers and his jaw fell open. One small, cross-eyed kid with freckles boldly stepped forward and kicked hard at the kitten, sending it flying through the air. He lunged forward to protect it. They were very much amused at this. Another came forward and kicked him in the stomach, making him bend double from the agony. He screamed.

“Scream all you want,” someone said. ‘Your mama ain’t home to save your ass this time.” And they all laughed.

Then a tall boy with a baseball bat stepped forward. “Hey freak, ever played baseball? Ya know what a strike out is? Here, let me show you.” And taking a huge bat lift, he swung hard catching him on the shins and sending him into conniptions from the pain. Together, they kicked him, scratched him and beat him almost everywhere. Nobody heard his cries for help. He was a retard and his mother was a charwoman; so, even if anyone did hear, they probably chose to ignore it.

At last, when the others had spent themselves, the biggest boy majestically strode forward, and grabbing him by the collar, punched him in the eye with all his might. As the fist made contact, a huge flash of light blinded him and his head dropped down on the ground, apparently quite lifeless. This made them feel a little ill at ease.

“Geez, I hope we haven’t killed the guy,” someone said from behind. Another nudged him with his foot, but there was no response. They looked wide eyed into each others’ faces. “Let’s scram before somebody gets here.” And they ran like so many rats in various directions across the alleyways.

Cats are marvelous creatures. They can fall from great heights or get bitten in half by dogs and yet continue to survive as if nothing happened. When they had kicked the kitten away, it immediately picked itself up and hid itself behind the trash cans. From its vantage point, it could see the whole scene play itself out. So, it merely waited for the crowd to disperse. As soon as the boys were gone, he ambled across to the kid and began eating off the fallen piece of meat. In the process, it brushed against his face. He opened his eyes and saw the cat. It looked a little blurred around the edges. He extended an arm and touched it. The cat turned around but did not go away. This gave him a little more courage and with some effort, he managed to sit up. He propped himself up against the trash can and began stroking the cat with one hand. As if to reciprocate, the cat also climbed into his lap and fell asleep.

Two hours later, his mother had completed her chores for the day and went out the back to fetch her kid. She found him in that same position propped up against the cans with a kitten in his lap. She knew something wasn’t right. She walked up to him and gently touched his shoulder. He started to shake all over. Slowly, she raised his head up and then saw the black eye and the blood under his nose. She winced slightly. However, she had had her share of pain and had long ago resigned herself to the fact that it was to be no bed of roses for her kid either. With infinite patience, she managed to coax him into an upright position. Taking out a bottle of water from her handbag, she wet a corner of her handkerchief, and with one hand started to clean his wounds with it as he gazed away from her. Meanwhile, her other hand travelled over the back of her own neck, and as she felt the withered flesh beneath, she all of a sudden remembered that she, too had been young once –all pink and white and beautiful. A thought occurred to her. Diving into her handbag, she checked how much money she had.

“Hey kid, want an ice cream?” And all of a sudden, from behind that veil of coagulated blood a smile broke out.

“With cherries?”

“Sure, anything you like – chocolate, pineapple, vanilla, anything! And you could even get an extra scoop if you promise to be good.”

“Ooh, I’d like that!” he said almost ecstatically and grinning very widely now. Mother and son strolled down the shady lane as his fingers interlaced with hers. He was telling her all about the cat.

Yours sincerely

Jude

Lost (A story)

“All right, here we are. Now, be a good boy and stay put inside the car. Mommy’s got work to do, sweetheart, so sorry to make you wait. Oh, and keep an eye on your sister – don’t you let her blow the horn or kick up a ruckus, now.” Kissing the pair of them hurriedly without actually touching her lips, she walked briskly away from the car with her back towards it, turning round momentarily at the door to pass her right hand significantly across her throat and simultaneously click her tongue to convey the exact repercussions of not following her injunctions to the full.

He was a seven year old boy with a scar just above his right eyebrow from a fall he’d suffered two years ago trying to mount the neighbours’ fence with the sole motive of pilfering apples from their tree. Had his chin been a touch stronger or his eyes narrower, he’d have paid dearly half the times he was condoned for some mischief he caused. She was just four-and-a-half and had the appearance of a moist beetroot with a jetpack. Together, they were the greatest inspiration behind the drive in the field of natural science to come up with more effective contraceptives.

As soon as she was out of sight, he started banging his head on the dashboard in mock chagrin. Discovering on the seventh strike that it actually hurt, he abruptly ceased doing it and diverted his attention towards his sister. She was sitting on the back seat dribbling from the corner of her mouth, her forefinger stuck up her nose and her eyes reflecting the fleecy clouds above.

“Cut it out”, he said as he roughly yanked her hand away from her nose. She stared at him vacantly and open mouthed for some time, her brow creased, but then turned her head and once more her finger embarked on the treasure hunt up her olfactory tract. “Stop that! You’re freaking me out.” This time he gave her such a violent jerk that she damn near fell off her seat. The quivering pout and glistening eyes made him realize the gravity of his sin and he hurriedly clambered up the back of the seat to effectively gag her sister with his palm before the impending wail.

“Don’t cry, Gaby,” he said to her, somewhat nervously as he looked around to look for a diversion. “Ah, what luck! Mum forgot the key inside the car. Cheer up, kiddo. This is our lucky break.” Checking for any signs of being observed and finding none, he picked up the key and placing it within the lock, turned it. A mechanical click followed. He tried the handle and to his great delight, the door swung open.

“We’re free, Gaby, free!” He hauled his bewildered sister up the back of the seat and the pair of them set foot upon the brave, new world outside. And lo! The sky turned bluer and the buildings shot up higher right before their very eyes! There were a lot of people on the sidewalk at that time of the day; like so many ants – moving linearly and without apparent motive. Twice they had to scamper out of the way to avoid being trampled upon.

Right across the street was a gigantic toy store. He pointed it out to her. It got her, it did. She smiled, and her entire face lit up. She looked so much better when she did that, he thought. “I want a pony,” she said simply. “We’ll get whatever you want, but hurry up. We must return before mum gets back,” he said as he took her by the hand and the two of them rushed across the street.

The moment they entered, it felt like the other side of the looking glass. He’d never seen anything like this. Tyrannosauruses in smocks belted out classic Christmas tunes to the entire Bear family from Goldilocks. A choo-choo train chugged around doomed for all eternity to the life of a circular track. A skeleton nodded its head significantly at anyone who dared to touch it. Rocking horses rocked invitingly from their pedestals. He-man brandished his sword menacingly at Catwoman who threatened to cut him short with her razor-sharp claws. Time itself seemed to stop as he watched from a dream. He turned his head so much that his neck hurt. Towards the left was a wooden staircase leading to the upstairs section that promised toys for the ‘older’ boys. He climbed it like a zombie.

Upstairs, the first thing he saw was the greatest collection of balls in the universe. There were baseballs, tennis balls, footballs, golf balls, bowling balls, and multicoloured, multipurpose balls of gigantic proportions. Then there were the roller skates – quads, inlines, skateboards, scooters – you name it! And bicycles – mouthwateringly red. He approached one and tried the handle. “This would make a swell thing to go around on, eh Gaby?” No answer. He turned around; no Gaby in sight. He turned right, then left, and then swiveled round in 360 degrees. Still no Gaby! The wonders that surrounded him only a moment ago suddenly turned to ashes. He called out to her. He let go of the bike and dashed down the staircase. Skeleton, tyrannosaurus, rocking horse – balls, skates, bicycles; back to rocking horse, tyrannosaurus, skeleton. He ran up and down the wooden staircase around four or five times. At last he dropped down on his kness from sheer exhaustion. Then the realization that he’d truly lost Gaby hit him, right in the pit of the stomach. He drew his breath in sharply. What was he to do now? He closed his eyes and let his head rest on his knee in sheer despair. He raised his head again to come face to face with the skeleton grinning fiercely from its corner. It brought back thoughts of his mother. He’d be slaughtered. She’d especially mentioned that he had to look after his sister while she was away. And now he’d lost her!

“Get a grip on yourself,” he told himself. “Panicking will get you nowhere.” He must think – use his head. “I bet she is within this store somewhere”, he thought, for any other possibility was simply too scary to imagine. He looked around. There were tons of stuff in there making for a million odd hiding places. So, he must be methodical. Gaby, he said, was even smaller than the retriever next door. So she’d probably fit within an amazingly small volume. He resolved then and there that he’d leave no stone unturned, even turn the store inside out if necessary.

Start from the door, he told himself. And he did. He looked everywhere – behind the bears, under the rocking horse, on the shelves, in the trash can, beneath Catwoman’s cape, under He-man’s legs, and even lifted up a corner of the carpet to peer underneath. But Gaby remained as elusive as before. “Mustn’t-lose-hope,” he cried, mouthing each word painfully as he clawed his face in desperation. His eyes itched so hard from the dust he’d encountered that he wanted to gouge them out. Well, if she ain’t downstairs, it figures she’s somewhere upstairs, he thought. So he once again mounted the stairs. Upstairs, it was pretty much the same story. Once again, he did all he could – looked under the balls, above the balls, behind the bicycles, beneath the skateboards, and behind the curtains. Still no sign of Gaby! He felt goosebumps all over. Maybe aliens came in and abducted her! But, knowing Gaby, they’d probably have returned her by now. No, she must be in the toy store. But, the problem was that the toy store consisted only of upstairs and downstairs, and she was to be found in neither, unless of course – the stairs! That must be it! He jumped up and dashed down the stairs. There, in a dark, putrid corner under the staircase was her own little Gaby, smiling and sucking her thumb with great satisfaction. Being inclined to discipline her at the slightest occasion, he would have given her a smacking for sucking her thumb (even though he himself was not above it when greatly agitated), but not this time! Instead, all he did was pick her up and kiss her about a billion times all over her happy face, startling her considerably. But his happiness was short-lived, for with a start he realized that by now his mother was probably all over the street looking for them, in hysterics.

“Wait here,” he told her. “I’ll go outside and check first if mum’s there.” He pushed open the swing doors and peered outside. Then he saw her. She saw him, too. She looked like Godzilla on an adrenaline over-secretion. She dragged some subliminal thing behind her.

“There you are, you little rascal. I hope you’ve had your fun at last, young man,” she said between clenched teeth. It was hard work talking to that marvelous chin in that tone, but she was determined to see it through to the end this time. “Never once did you think about me, not even your little sister. The poor thing got so scared on being left alone that she ran back straight to my office, crying so hard that nothing would induce her to stop. ” He did not understand. He looked down and to his utter amazement realized that the ‘subliminal thing’ was actually Gaby herself, very much alive and well, except for a bit of red about the eyes. He whirled around, and sure enough, standing behind him was Gaby, too. As his mother approached him, she too came creeping up from behind until she was standing at his side. It was then his mother saw her. “What on earth –” was all she managed to say before almost biting her tongue in half and passing out on the hot sidewalk. The two Gabys simultaneously let out an earth-shattering wail. He made no attempt to shut his ears to the sound.

He had searched well – very well, in fact, perhaps only too well, so well that he’d found her even when she wasn’t there!

Yours sincerely

Jude